Sunday, January 16, 2011

oh. please die

to the weirdest feeling in my deepest heart and soul ;

please die.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

versi penyedap hati

salam.


ok. kecewa. sebabbb ;

- tak tau pun dah boleh cek coursework kat e learning. tade org bgtau ponnn..
- ok. bile cek, rendah la pulakkk. yang paling unexpected ialah markah lab. haishhh.

arrrggghhh. dah la exam hari tu macam ape je! and yet cgpa is very crucial. *sighhh*



hmmmm. so let by gone be by gone. nothing can be changed ady, rite? pray and hope. pray and hope. pray and hope.

O Allah, walk me through this hardship.


p/s : Stand up, chin up, and smile!

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

random scrap

salam.

Alhamdulillah, segala puji bagi Allah, walaupun dengan hujan lebat dan ribut di Terengganu, dapat jugak saya merasa kehangatan rumah. after like 8 hours journey. fuhhhh! upon reaching home, terus mengerekot dalam comfoter. sejukk! brrr. kesan kesan tangisan langit masih jelas di mana mana di KT. kuot benor hujan nye. dalam duk tahan sejuk tu ape lagi, memang konfem terlelap. bus-lag! travelling alone, for the very first time from UTPet to KT, was very tiring. with no one to talk to, and MP3 player yang out of battery, all i have was keindahan ciptaan Tuhan untuk menjamu mata. Subhanallah. cantik! :)

actually, despite dengan suhu yang menurun, i like KT better this way. nyaman sangat. dan angin yang bertiup sangat sangat la menyegarkan. dan kadang kadang ehemmm.. mendodoikan! nti kalau ayah bwk gi jalan jalan lagi, i'll try to snap a few pictures. heeee.

today is like the second day at home. hmmm. everything went well except for a few things; which for me was silly but inexcusable. haha. semuanye gara gara ajl semalam. cehhh. nak salahkan benda lain pulak. tapi takpela, time is the best healer, rite? hopefully it wil not take until two weeks. hmmm. sejak balik rumah, dah dua hari breakfast kat luar which is a very bonus treat sbb both mama and ayah are working. macam pagi tadi, sebab nak renew ic so ikut la ayah pergi kerja dan kebetulan pulak ayah ada weekly gathering kat bangunan wisma. oh, just great! tak de la kene tinggal sorang sorang. lepas tu just head back home. haaa, otw balik tu ayah tanya ; "nak makan apa apa tak?" actually nakkk. tapiii, not in the mood. heeee. rugi rugi. haha.

ok. now i want to blurb out a few pieces of yesterday. i still couldn't manage to mend my biological clock. tidur awal malam, bangun tengah malam, pastu tak tidur tidur dah! just like exam week hari tuh. parah nih! nasib la ada bola and ajl. so takde la tidur awal. kire dah boleh tidur normal balik la. good good.

so pagi tuh i get to send both my lil bros to school. 6.30 i'm more than ready untuk hantar zaim kat depan gate rumah. nak tengok bas pok mi punye pasal! haha. finally, dapat jugak tgk. dok beruboh! bas yang sama since last 5 years. cume pok mi skang pakai lampu putih. dulu lampu kuning. heee.pastu hantar azim pulak pergi SS1. my old school as well. jarak dari rumah 5 minit je, tapi mak aihhh jam giler! pastu i get my lucky treat; ayah ngan mama belanja nasi kerabu ayam bakar for breakfast. heaven! haha. pastu balik rumah, gossip sket dengan nenek terchenta, haha. a lot of catching up to do with her. :) then, tak mau la kecikkan hati die, so dengan rela hatinya jadi co-chef hari ni! haha. dah lama tak masuk dapur kottt.

lepas tu ingat nak try la tgk nona. lama dah tak tengok. dah la ada host baru, vee. tapi kannn, sorry to say, tak bestt la. best lagi masa nurul syuhada ngan fiza dulu. hmmmm. lepas tu dah boring, mcm biasa la ambik *eheemm* the so-called "P O W E R N A P". haha. tiara and fatin knows better about my very efficient power nap. in the eve, pergi ambik azim kat sekolah. jalan kaki! wahhh. kurussss laaa! =.=" ok. jalan kaki satu hal, pastu nak pusing satu sekolah cari dia sorg lagi. this is SKSS1 we are talking about. besar kot! ouh, pastu jumpe je adik, tengok die tengah makan aiskrim. fuhhhh. selamat dari kene pau. haha. bagus bagus. save duit. ehh cop! belum selamat lagi. lepas cross jalan je, ; "kakak kite tengok air nyior kat kedai depan tuh, bole? ". i just made the " =.=' " expression on my face. ceyhhh. business-minded punye adik. tapi, NASIB BAIK kedai itu TUTUP. hahaha. booo!

nevertheless, budak boyot tu bawak balik surat pelantikan pengawas sekolah. bapak ahhh. bukan main happy sampai mintak ayah belanja. tapi ; permohonan anda tidak dilayan! BOOO! dengan selambanye, die kata ; "e'eleh, kakak dulu SS1 librarian JER. " . amboooooooiii. lawan tauke nampak! ceit. haha. i don't give a damn la bro, what i look upon is that you've made mama and ayah proud and i shall be proud too. adik kakak kannn. wahaha. so, harap harap ada la baju prefect yang ada size mu, dik. ngeh3.

semua tu made my days. for sure, life is way better and busier at home. don't mind coz i love it. seriously. ;)

p/s : dah start addict kat TV dah. adoooiihh. House, Chuck! <3

Friday, January 7, 2011

one step closer - engineering futures

salam.

wahhhh. saat paling bahagia bile chief invigilators announced ; ok, you may leave the hall now. waktu die cakap ok je, sy terus bgn. haha. stationery dh siap kemas, jaket dh lipat elok elok. ape lagi? despite duk 3rd row from front, tak malu dah. bangkit je trus. lega punya pasal. sumpah release gile rase.

officially, lebih kurang pukul 5.40 ptg td, tamatlah sudah riwayat zaman foundation di Universiti Teknologi Petronas yg terchenta. Alhamdulillah. Selepas semua jerih perih, berakhir jugak zaman kejatuhan ni. In total, lagi banyak air mata dari suka, lagi banyak tekanan dari leisure. ye la, nama pun study kan. hopefully, tak repeat. tak mauuuu. susah owh belajar engineering. sometimes, it's quite hard to believe i surived. Alhamdulillah, syukur sekali lagi.

so,

i'm now one step closer to my planned future. tapi itu la, sebagai hamba-Nya, kita hny mampu merancang, yg menentukan tetap Allah Yang Maha Esa. perjalanan yg terdampar kat depan, masih la tersangat panjang. i couldnt even figure out the end from here..


hmmm. future planning? study study study. ade scholar ke tak ke. nak study jugak. dah dunia skrg kan MEMENTINGKAN cgpa. tak gitu? sy nak jadik chemical engineer yg berjaya dan berguna. atau setidak tidaknya, sy nak graduate with Bachelor of Engineering (Honours) Chemical. :)) mama dgn ayah dh byk berkorban bersusah payah. so it's time to give back to them walaupun nilai sebenar pengorbanan mereka tak mampu dibalas balik biar smpi hujung nyawa sekalipun.

biar sejak kecik sy tak pernah bayang pun, i will opt for engineering, but it's okayyy. i'm already half way to grab the stars. am i? haha. org melayu kata; alang alang menyeluk pekasam, biar sampai ke pangkal lengan. untuk kawan kawan kat utipet nih; sama sama kita MAS, sama sama kite grad ea! sayang korang semua ketat ketat.


picture from : flickr.com


jadi, jom la kite enjoy, relax sket 2 minggu ni;

sebelum, kite jumpe balik dengan ORGANIC CHEMISTRY !


ouh. we might need this, folks ;



moral of the stories ; next time in planning the future, do what your heart tells you to. but if it's too late, maybe your heart is some kinda mute or maybe you try to pretend deaf, then start believing in what you're doing sebab, there can be no happiness if the things we believe in are different from the things we do.


ok amirah! enough with random scrap mumblingggss. packing jom! ahaaa. 


p/s : everybody wants to be like him. so do i. :)


picture taken from :  muhammadassad.com

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Tuesday, January 4, 2011

can we pretend that airplane in the night sky like a shooting star?

salam.

hari dah masuk 4 hb jan. ye ye saye tahu. sy belum habis final. haha. tapi kan, mmg sgt irresistible untuk tidak gatal tangan post kat sini. ptg tadi, berakhirlah sudah paper physics two. 1 down , 2 more to go. esok dan luse. lepas tu? balik! hooyeahh! macam mana paper td? macam mana nak kate ek? ok la. bak kata tirah kat meja belakang ; 50 - 50. so, memandangkan final sem ni cuma ada 3 subjek, kite kene la skor at least A- utk EACH subject, baru boleh dpt DL. hmmmm. which, in my very complicated and haunted case, DL adalah sgt CRUTIAL. SANGAT.

ok. move on, babe! fuhhh..tajuk post kali ni,is my latest lovable addiction ; *airplane (bob ft hayley william)*
can we pretend that airplane in the night sky like a shooting star?
COZ I COULD REALLY USE A WISH RITE NOW, A WISH RITE NOW. got it? ahaaa. ;)

kemarin, sesi persekolahan start balik utk sesi 2011. wahhh. it has been 2 years! rindu la nak pakai baju sk lagi. naik bas pok mi pukul 6.30 (byk kenangan doee). smpi sk 6.45; sambung tido. haha. takde lah! buat homework la, pe lagi! kalau hari ahad ; mesti busy lari lari susun kerusi utk ASSembly. iring pengetua. wahhhh. rinduuuu. oh, cik adia nadilla, if you are reading this, i hope you miss the moment kite knock knock bilik PUAN HAJAH AZIZAH pagi ahad dulu dulu, like i do. :)

haaaa. ckp pasal Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Sultan Sulaiman ni kan... there's something i would like to share ;

smalam masa tgh fb walking, jumpe la kat profile sir, gambar sir dgn faizal muhamad! gambar kat SS! depan lab chemistry kat blok form 6 oh! ok ok. rilek. baca caption baca caption!

" bangge gak pabila 4 harimau Malaya adalah ex-sulaimanians... "

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!! so damn proud! haha. my seniors are nation wide, world wide! *sorry la. excited nih! ahaaa* extending from YDP Agong Sultan Mizan Zainal Abidin sampai national football player. weeee. :) SS memang dikenali sebab kehebatan bola sepak. one of the BIGGEST factor SS dapat CLUSTER school.

zaman kegemilangan bola sepak, esp zaman pengetua Tn Hj Daud , complete dgn dedicated coaches ; Cg Rahimi, Cg Razali, Cg Azhari, Cg Mazlan.cayalah SS ! that's why sy sgt support adk sy utk join. cume, kene pandai pandai bahagi masa. budak bola SS jarang ada kat sk!

pastu try la cari sape lagi 3 org yg ex-SS nih? hmmm. tdk dpt dipastikan la pulak.
tapi, as far as my extended knowledge, player Terengganu yang main utk HARIMAU MUDA;
scorer - Ashaari Samsuddin (orang bukit payung boh! ahaaa ;D )
defender - Mohd Muslim bin Ahmad
keeper - Sharbinee Allwee Ramli (bkn main GK. main was Khairul Fahmi Che Mat from Kelantan).
lagi sorg, striker - Izzaq Faris Ramlan (from Kemaman).

i'm not sure if they were all from SS. but anyway, GOOD JOB Malaysia. so damn proud of you!
semoga kemenangan kali ni, open a wider prospect for Malaysian football to expand and perform better. tak boleh la nak capai tahap EPL, La Liga atau Bundes Liga terus. tapi, hopefully, we can stand proud in the class of our own pada mata dunia. MALAYSIA BOLEH ! ;)

here's the pic from Sir KZ's profile.

bye! :)

aiseh. lupa. ayah saya pun senior saya jugak! ahaaa. ;)
SMKSS - tradisi kekal abadiii

Saturday, January 1, 2011

penggulungan 2010

salam.

hari ini tarikh kat kalendar dah jadi 1/1/11 (walaupun sy blm beli kalender baru!). so selamat selamat tahun baru untuk semua. actually post kali ini, nak sum up tahun 2010. last analysis kot. hmmmm...

2010 - awalnya, menjangkakan tahun ni sebagai tahun yg baik. sebab nye, tahun permulaan hidup kat universiti. walaupun engineering bukanlah my first choice, tapi sy tetap tak berganjak dari uni terchenta ini. permulaan hdup kat sini sgtlah susah. homesick, toksah cerita la. meleleh leleh. tapi lagi susah nak handle subjek subjek yang kene belajar. sy ni bukanlah math-minded. jauh skali nak jatuh cinta kat subjek kira kira tu. tapi, takdir mengatakan sy di sini, dan tetap di sini, sampai saat ni saya tengah berdebar debar menghitung detik utk final exam, final semester. kadang kadang sy tak tahu, patut ke sy lawan takdir tu, atau pun just let it flows thru my life. however, life went as usual. sy baru sedar saya sgt suke basuh baju. haha. dan sebab sy suke wangi wangian, saya sgt cenderung utk tuang softener byk byk. bile fikir fikir balik, patut la over spent kat household! spnjg 2010, dah 2, 3 kali laptop sy crashed. dah 2 kali jam sy rosak smpi la mama ngan ayah beli jam yg betul betul jam hari tu.  2010 jgk merupakan tahun saya beli beg paling banyak! ok. enough with the nonsense trivia. tahun ni saya dapat 2 bestfriends baru ; FATIN FILZATI n HANI TIARA. i will never knew how we got hooked up, tapi sy sayang sangat deorg and never i want to leave them. saranghae <3 !

study life? not good. 2010 merupakan antara study year yg paling teruk spnjg saya darjah satu smpi la skrg. performance jatuh merudum, berguling guling dan terhentak! walaupun terikat dgn scholar, tapi igauan tak lepas cgpa setiap hari menghantui benak fikiran ni. 3.4 nampak mcm sikit. tapi bagi org mcm sy, who really "fonds"  engineering, itu adalah seperti mengapai bintang di langit dgn galah mempelam. what more, gpa utk first and second sem are both bullshits! so, apa yg saya doa dan harap setiap detik, semoga encik jaypieeayy baik hati nak sambung scholarship saya mse ug nanti. kesian la encik kat parents sayee. pleaseee. study life 2010 jugak dah menyaksikan beberapa kali sy jadi zombie - tak tidur siapkan ASSignment, study, stay up. but still, tak jugak score! havent yet found the key access to success, here in utp. *sigh* so, waktu post ni ditulis, saya tgh break dari struggle dgn chem. give off fb lps wish birthday ayah. ayah, sorry, kakak tak dapat nak jadik mcm yg ayah harapkan. sorryyy.

ok what next? emmm. love life? naaaaaaaa. i'm still the old me, folks. tanak terlibat dgn cinta cinta ni. heeeeeee.  crush? cursed. haha. ;P

roommate sy faridah hanim. dah lebih kurang setahun la roommate dgn die ni. tahun dpn? mmm. tak lagi la nampaknye. jadi, kirenye die berhak la ni dpt privilege dlm post ni.
cik farid, mu mmg seorg roommate yg baik. mu suke masok. so, kekgi mesti mu jadi super mama yg hebakk. teruskan dgn wawasan mu. jadi anak melayu yg outsatanding. org boleh nmpk mu akan berjaya in few years ahead. bangga ah ngan mu! legasi SS tinggal kite 2 je la op? kekgi kalau jalan kat pocket D oa, jgn dok tegur org pulok. belanja paprika ke. haha. rindu ah nk tido sejid ngan mu lagi. sorry r, org mmg gini. boring. sorry mu terpakse stuck ngan gua. hehe. peace. thanks sbb bagi pinjam toshy mu time laptop org crashed. terima kasih ah utk segala galenye. semua juicy gossip mu tuh. segala jenis scandal and lovematch mu. org dok lupe nye! pastu kan dday, mu bawak kerete best. despite whatever happen masa kite g ipoh hari tu, mu bawak kereta still best. pasal scholar, org percaye ade something better utk mu in future. bile n ape, tu bukan bwh pengetahuan org. ho, pastu kekgi kot kot la mu rindu nak balik naik bas, kabo ah. boleh balik skali even mu turun kat besut pun. mu budok bijok. so, jgn cemarkan kebijaksanaan mu tu, dgn mende mende yg dok sepatutnye. overall, org boleh kate, mu memang calon menantu yang baik! ahaaa. ;)

obstacle paling susah utk 2010 : untuk dpatkan scholar. kdg2, straight a pun tak janjikn sebuah scholarship. mgkn ada yg lebih prefer background family and study place kot. corruption? i dunno.. dan bile dh dpt scholar, susah pulak nak mantain cgpa die. (tak bersyukur betul!)

paling best 2010 : paling takde la. yg best sikit sebab result spm straight a. tu je la kot.

natijahnye, 2010 adalah tahun yg baik, tapi tak cukup baik untk saya kata tahun yg hebat. halangan yg dtg tu average tp berat owh. whatever it is, sy syg family sya, kawan kawan sy, cg cg. tahun ni, buat sy lebih dekat dgn Dia. :)

terima kasih 2010. tapi sy harap tak jumpe awk lagi. sorry.